I woke up early and had to catch this boat to Jost Van Dyke... and I was miserable... it stopped off at Tortola... and I totally missed the wedding... I ate a lunch and took the hugest crap I ever took... like it was Bono sized...

I had to walk around and look around while I waited for the boat to Jost... it was hours... and I just walked around//I changed my flight via phone to stay longer... I was supposed to go home but on this boat ride I thought to myself maybe if I stayed longer that girl would kiss me on the cheek again... so I wanted to stay extra days on my way home on St. John's... and just make a relationship with this girl, maybe get married and have kids when we both go back to New England and, nothing special, we just get married when we get home and get married and have kids and live in New Hampshire or Maine together.

I arrived on Jost Van Dyke... and I just camped. I paid to camp. It was amazing. I never want to leave the house if that is not possible... I arrived in Jost Van Dyke and I felt so free. The whole trip of going from one place to another made me feel so free. I loved the food... I love the landscape... I arrived and I had a few PainKillers with the crew from New Hampshire that arrived... man they are gay. This is the shots I had of the people there.
they are probably a lot smarter than me but smarts need opportunity to prove and the more the better.. Wow it was beautiful there...

I could go in detail about the people around during this trip, people from New Hampshire and our relationships and how I felt about them but not hearing how they felt about me... I was a loser of course... I still admire and don't understand families or any relationships between people... what is expected and what should I do to express myself? I will later do an exploration on whether I am or was autistic but that stuff is regarded.

They let me stay at the Villa in Tortolla. They asked me why I didn't take the direct from St. John's to Jost Van Dyke... instead of the St. John's to Tortola to Jost... to Tortola again.. and I didn't know what they were talking about... but that is why I missed their wedding. I was there for a wedding.