http://www.i-am-an-exmormon.com/

http://www.exmormonfoundation.org

http://www.postmormon.org/

http://www.exmormon.reddit.com

http://www.LifeAfterMormonism.net


"When our leaders speak, the thinking has been done. When they propose a plan--it is God's plan. When they point the way, there is no other which is safe. When they give direction, it should mark the end of controversy. God works in no other way. To think otherwise, without immediate repentance, may cost one his faith, may destroy his testimony, and leave him a stranger to the kingdom of God."
~Ward Teachers' message from the Improvement Era, June 1945

As a freshman at Ricks College, now BYU/Idaho, in 1973, replete in modest dress and full battle-make-up, that sentiment waged war with who I wanted to be: an actress, a bohemian, a performer.

But it was at Ricks where I received the Patriarchal Blessing that informed me of my calling in life: wife and mother. No, not Broadway bound, was I. The leaders spoke. I changed my major from theater and set my sights on my MRS.

In truth, the aforementioned sentiment was always at odds with my rebellious nature, but I truly longed for the blessings born of obedience and righteousness: peace, happiness, contentment, prosperity, etc. I did not want to be a stranger to God. So I truncated that part of myself to "follow the leaders." My world was very black and white.
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To read the rest of Pamela's story, please visit the following link:
http://www.iamanexmormon.com/2011/08/...