Music by: Edlan & Cooper Stites - Feel Again
released on ATNMY

Stream/get it here: https://atnmy.bandcamp.com/album/feel...

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Hello there!
It feels really weird to write this. Saying my sort of goodbye to the clubs.
At least in my weird way of thinking. I will never not dance to drum and bass.
I will not stop going to DnB parties.
But most just don't feel the same to me.
My vibe has shifted.
While theirs is basically what it always was.
I will never ever not love it all.
I still realize however, that the main reason for doing so is that I chased a memory of something.
And it was a beautiful place to chase.
So where does this sudden switch in position come from?
Well fist of all, nothing about this has been sudden.
It is indeed a long road of seeing, feeling, experiencing, learning and healing.
All the while looking for the answer to why I felt increasingly unhappy in clubs.
The biggest part of it, now uncovered.
I have left the dance floor that I loved, for saving me,
for being that final lifeline in the dark for me,
long ago.
Because it had changed.
Because it got stopped dead in what it was.
When the pandemic hit, a lot changed.
I think a part of it has to do with power.
Discovering it in oneself in tough times.
Witnessing the power our governments are able to impose on us.
For good or for bad. Depends on your own look at things.
Mine is rather critical. Certainly not undemocratic though!
The dance floor I used to go to, didn't exist anymore.
It never came back.
I have changed. As the world has changed around us and within.
An extraordinary impact on unique individuals.
That changed us all.
I am rather skilled at seeing patterns, everywhere I look.
So I looked at what I saw in the dance scene for these patterns.
What I see is more excessive behavior, a lot more anger and a constant little pinch of unease.
The last aspect being the most subjective, since it describes my own emotional world when I dance nowadays.
More drugs, more alcohol more aggressive music.
A mania dressed in the look of broken chains.
But something quite different.
I admit not being really able to pin it down over the years, but I do know my feelings and can use them as a guide through the maze of hindsight and fantasy and the real deal.
But for many they never were truly broken, they just vanished.
A lot of unfinished remnants of the whole lock down era left behind in unmended hearts and minds.
Resulting in a mania of repression.
Replacing the vanished shackles.
And if I learned something in my life it is that repression is opposed to healing.
As long as you repress, by going from party to party, by pushing yourself beyond your own limits
drug related and all the other ways
The pile of trouble only gets bigger.
I know because I too was on that path.
But only for a while.
Patience, mindfulness and radical honesty breaking those chains too.
And I moved on.
A lot of people still haven't.
Are they lost in a wonderland of hype and ecstasy?
Neither for me to judge or to say.
For I can only speak for myself and what I see and experience.
I took away my lessons.
And really took my time to learn from them.
Always with an honest eye upon myself.
And how I treat others.
My own principles.
And they are just no longer in tune with the current rave culture.
I hope you enjoyed watching. Stay safe. Be kind.
And may the force be with you!