Left to pretend.

Thank you for listening, it means the world. Consider following me on Bandcamp:
https://augustyourstruly.bandcamp.com/

And thank you to I've Never Been Here Before, Cole McInerney (of Typing Pool), Sensorium Angels, and Algonaught for their contributions to this EP! I couldn't have done it without you all.

Chapters:
0:00 A Show of Hands
1:09 Bats In The Belfry
5:03 Carving Board
8:00 Show Me The Shoes / In A Sea of Grifters
16:09 August Dies and Loses All His Friends

LYRICS:

A SHOW OF HANDS -----------------------------

So you see, my friends
The show is never over, not really
For every end is a beginning
And after every nothing, there is always something
Augustine, you gentle creature
Am I everything you say I am?
I wanted to be
Did I waste my potential?
Did I lose touch or sight?
Through you, maybe I'll never die
And I'll float in endless time
Reaching out towards unloving arms
As megalomania overtakes every possible outcome
Was I meant to be so much more?
I'll take a show of hands
Yeah,
That's what I'll do


BATS IN THE BELFRY -----------------

And now I'm back
And I feel amazing
Just like I thought I would
Just like I thought I would

Down in her eyes
You leave me to fantasize
I try to relate
But there's no one today
Left to pretend

I don't know what it is
You always keep me guessing
Always keep me laughing
I don't know what it is
The way you laugh with me
It rattles the bats in the belfry
I thought that I was crazy
I thought that I was gone

And now I'm back (Down in her eyes)
And I feel amazing (You leave me to fantasize)
Just like I thought I would (I try to relate)
Just like I thought I would (But there's no one today)
Left to pretend

You always keep me guessing
Always keep me laughing
I don't know what it is
The way you laugh with me
It rattles the bats in the belfry
I thought that I was crazy
I thought that I was gone
(We'll see how that goes)

Fuckin, okay


CARVING BOARD -----------------------------------------------------

Look at her, my audience
So beautiful in every lighting
She's so patient, but she doesn't have to be
She watches me try to please
People that aren't looking
Yet she stays by
Her discipline is so admirable
She can do anything she dreams of
And then there's me
Sitting myself on a carving board
Just like Berman told me
Waiting for you to notice
Please, just look at me
Just listen to me
Stay with me a little longer
You know nothing lights me up like a stranger
But I owe everything to her
On the carving board
On the carving board

(Going in circles
In this kind of weather, it makes you feel like going in circles
From the beginning again
I got a feeling, this time I'll win)

On the carving board
On the carving board
I'm insatiable
On the carving board
So relatable
On the carving board
Make them love you more
I go overboard
I go overboard

(Thank you)

SHOW ME THE SHOES / IN A SEA OF GRIFTERS ----

August
I have waited and waited
For you to see me
For me to be anything
I might be something, now

Do you feel me there?
In the quiet night
Do you feel my voice
On the back of your neck?
Do you remember my dreams
That I spoke to you in secret?
Can you tell me a story?
Tonight, just to help me fall asleep
I just need to rest my eyes

A workshop in south carolina
You tell me about your new friends
They sound wonderful
I take a few steps through the hydrofield
And I cry out to any warm body
A noise like that should echo and reverberate
But it didn't
All sound ceased
And years ago in the schoolyard
Children screaming "there's a condom in the grass"
We peered at a relic of another state of being
And laughed at the absurdity
Getting older seemed so impossible then
It still does

How do I do it
How do I do it
How do I make you see me
How do I make you see me
How do I make you see that I bleed
I'm a person and I bleed
I'm a real person and I bleed
And it's all for you
It's all for you
I bleed and it's all for you
It's all for you
I bleed and it's all for you

No matter what I win
No matter what I lose
I'm grateful for this
I'm grateful for you
But I bleed for you

I BLEED FOR YOU-

I worried
For so long
Oh I worried what you would think of me
My prized pig

And even after No Return
You came to my first show
And stayed the whole night
My friends and family
Me and Michael
What ever have I done
To deserve people like this

In a sea of grifters
I've gotta sell my way out
Oh, in a sea of grifters
I've gotta peddle my way out



AUGUST DIES AND LOSES ALL HIS FRIENDS ----

A pound of flesh for Mr. Keyes
Unlike everyone before me
Could I be so lucky?

(Explode into the sky)

Softly and sweetly
As much as I'm able
I call on my friends
The streams keep me stable
Pushing everyone away (Brother, do you love me?)
I need to be okay

We've all got priorities
How long until I'm not yours? (Ready when you are)
Focusing on families, our careers
Oh, tell me Taylor
How long until I die?
And you lose all your friends