Hello, I'm Afternoon Tea (午後ティー).
Because it's become colder, please do make taking care of yourself your greatest priority.

■ Vocal / Otomachi Una

■ Music, Lyrics / Afternoon Tea (午後ティー)
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■ Illust. / Ryouya Chimo (涼夜 ちも)。
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【Lyrics】
僕に才能なんかないなら
If I don’t have talent, or anything like that,
もっと早く教えて　神様
Hurry up and tell me, God
お陰で行くも帰るも　もうできん場所に来ちゃった
Thanks to you, I’ve ended up at a place where I can’t go forward and I can’t come back
そんな顔をしないでよ　母さん
Don’t make that face, mother
こんな歌　歌ってごめんな
This kind of song, I’m sorry I’m singing it
でも　そうしなきゃ僕が僕でいられない日々だ
But if I don’t, then I’ll pass day after day unable to be myself

夜勤明けの駅は凪いで　朝を焼いて
The train station after the night shift is calm, the morning burning
すてっぱちな僕の生活を暴いては嘲笑う
Exposing and sneering at my self-abandoned, despairing life
容赦がないよな
Really not going easy on me, huh?

憧れだったミュージシャンが嫌いになったのは去年の春先
It was last year, at the beginning of spring, when I started to hate the musicians I admired
「夢は叶うのさ」って戯言を歌ったから
Because they always sang nonsense like “Dreams will come true!”
諦めること　ちょうどいい引き際も
Giving up and and quitting when the time’s right —
大事だってちゃんと歌ってよ
Sing out about how they’re important, too!
綺麗な言葉だけで生きてけりゃどれほどか
How nice it would be if you could live on just pretty words.

僕に才能なんかなかった
I didn’t have talent, or anything like that
疾うに周知の事実ですか
Had it already become common knowledge a long time ago?
行くも帰るも才能なら　僕は肉塊以下だ
If both going forward and coming back are talents, then I’m even worse than a lump of meat
こんな歌を歌わないで済む人生はどこに売ってんのさ
Lives that can just be finished without singing these kinds of songs — where do they sell them?
道端に転がる吸いさしが　まさに僕だ
The cigarette butts that tumble about on the side of the road — they’re just like me.

1Kの牢で横臥
Lying on my side in the jail of this studio apartment*
日が暮れて満月の明るさを知った
I became acquainted with the darkening of the day and the brightness of the full moon
そうだ　もう僕には逃げ場がないのだ
That’s right; the fact is, I don’t have anywhere to run anymore

ここから出ていくためには死ぬしかねぇ
The only reason to go out and leave here is to die, right
夢なんて持たぬが身のため
Not having anything like dreams is for my own good

明日は我が身だと震える余生　クソくらえ
Tomorrow, as for my self and my shuddering remaining years — eat shit!
下を見てみろ　精神論者ども
Try looking down for once, all you idealists
僕は全てに負けたぞ
I lost at everything!
線路に横たわる敗者の声は聞こえてんだろ
You can hear the voices of the losers who laid down on the tracks, can’t you?

四季の移ろい　人の営み
The changing of the four seasons, the work of people,
勝者だけに許された贅の極み
The height of luxuries only the winners are allowed
時間なんてない
I don’t have things like time
若いやつらに後ろ指さされてばっか　立つ瀬がない
All I am is pointed at behind my back by those young guys, just losing face.
僕が座る椅子はもうない
There’s already no chair left for me to sit in,
世間体　プライド　心中も辞さない
Keeping up appearances; pride; not even their double suicide can scare me
「生きていたい」なんて言えない
I can’t say anything like “I want to keep living”

項垂れた頭に空いた風穴
A windy hole opened in my hanging head
どこで道を間違えたかな
I wonder where I lost the way
14の秋にギターを手にしてからか
Is it because of the guitar I’ve held for 14 autumns?
今じゃゴミを漁る浮浪者を見て　他人事だとは思えねぇ
Now I see a vagrant fishing through the garbage, but I don’t think that it’s someone else’s problem

憧れだったミュージシャンが嫌いになったのは去年の春先
It was last year, at the beginning of spring, when I started to hate the musicians I admired
「夢は叶うのさ」って戯言を歌ったから
Because they always sang nonsense like “Dreams will come true!”
諦めること　ちょうどいい引き際も
Giving up and and quitting when the time’s right —
大事だってちゃんと歌ってよ
Sing out about how they’re important, too!
綺麗な言葉だけで生きてけりゃどれほどか
How nice it would be if you could live on just pretty words.

僕は才能なんかないけ
I don’t have talent, or anything like that, but
最後に一つだけいいかな
Just one last bit at the end should be fine, right?
結局、行くも帰るももう自分次第だってさ
In the end, whether you go forward or come back depends on yourself, after all
「夢を持つならそれでもいいが、目測だけは見誤るな」
“If you have a dream, that’s still okay, but just don’t misjudge your own limits.”
それさえ分かってりゃ大抵はどうとでもなるそうだ
As long as you understand that, more or less, it seems what will be, will be.
厭世と多幸は表裏一体だ
Being tired of life and being overjoyed with it are just two sides of the same coin.

(* “Studio apartment” - original is “1K,” lit. “1 kitchen” apartment, it refers to a small apartment that usually consists of a single room with a divided kitchenette.)

English TL by Xia (@PachinkoSubs)

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