God wants you to let go and let Him use you for good.
God is more than enough for you, to take you through your struggle, and get you to the life He intended for you. You are destined for victory, a life of purpose and meaning, and placed here for good. If you are stuck in addiction, ask Jesus to break the chains, turn to God for His ways, and you will surely be freed. You can stop drinking before it's too late. It is not too late. Give your shame, and regrets to God. God loves you unconditionally. You can let go get your life back. Take your life back. Be happy again. Be you. God created you perfectly.