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"Who I Am" by Sam Ock is from his most recent EP release, "Pastel." It is a soulful introspection into the struggle of finding authentic identity and eternal purpose.

Pastel is a collection of songs in late 2018 by hip-hop/jazz songwriter Sam Ock. The project is a canvas that displays the soft, subtle and light hues which veil a sensitive, pain-ridden soul searching for solace. The gentle, jazz-laced chords and crooning vocals display an idyllic scene while Ock’s honest and direct lyrics lace the work with a sense of deep longing. Pastel is catharsis for the hurting and searching listener.

Who I Am by Sam Ock

I get up, I get down
It's the rhythm of my battle drum
I get up, I get down
I'mma struggle 'til the day is done

Every voice telling me that I am thinking wrong
Change ya tune, change ya chord, sing that other song
Little brother turned into an insecure man
Any type of criticism make me into "lesser than"
Never believed I could be right or be me
What is me? They just tell me what I'm s'pposed to be
Gotta be a brand, but I never really owned it for myself
Now I'm nebulous, I'm tired of it, this stress my mental health
see my chaos and I know I gotta speak into it
I see my apathy I know I gotta battle ruthless
I know my Father look at me and He is well pleased
the problem is that I aint good enough for me
maybe the best thing for me is You
I know the pain will show the truth
maybe I am beautiful to You

*I just want to be myself
I just want to be myself today
Wanna know just who I am
I need you to help me understand

**Who I am is beloved
Who I am is more than what I’ve done
Who I am is worthy of some lovin
Who I am has really just begun
Who I am is a treasure
Who I am is royalty in blood
Who I am is a warrior for the kingdom
Who I am has really just begun

Nobody will know that I’m speaking of my sweat and blood
Only hear they talk of blessings coming down above
When my praises go up the blessing come down
But my blessing is to keep me low to the ground
The blessing is needing more love than I ever knew
The blessing is knowing there’s nothing I can really do
The blessing is pain, adversity, my own addiction
Cause if I didn’t cry in need then would I really listen ?
The blessing is losing illusion of my control
The blessing is being betrayed and you bleed slow
The blessing is to feel the discipline of better love
There's better love than self love, lovin' from the One
The only One who can take all this craziness
The only Father good enough for all the fatherless
I know that my pain it clarifies the truth
that maybe I am beautiful to You