Don’t watch this video. Seriously. I mean it.

I was compelled to film it to complete my thought but you can totally skip it and you won’t have missed anything.

-- Handheld shaky camera warning.
-- Errant dog hair warning.
-- Crazy mid-video volume jump warning.
-- Tapping brush sound warning.

I realized I still had a couple more things to say before I do my sketchbook flip-through.

0:00 the committee
The things I say to myself when I paint, mostly criticism, I divided into Judge, Coach, Manager, Proofreader, and me.

Yesterday I added “mom” as the kind supportive voice, but I’m going to wrap “mom” into “me” because I don’t want to have to draw another paper puppet.

I see them all as parts of me, but they’re not separated parts. More like a nesting doll. They’re layers.

9:40 influences
The points I wanted to make were that my head people are similar to Sigmund Freud’s Id, Ego, Superego, or Eric Berne’s Transactional Analysis using the Parent, Adult, Child idea. In both of those theories, I’ve been in the Superego or the Parent frame of mind too much, and I need to figure out how to express the Child, or the Id. I don't appreciate the Parent or Ego as much as I should.

Maybe it’s residue from being a graphic artist for so long, and I don’t know how to be playful anymore

It’s like I need to give myself permission to have ice cream for breakfast once in a while, but in terms of doing art.