This video explores a particularly frustrating aspect of my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from my last relationship. I talk about my last relationship more in other poems/videos. The quick run down is I was engaged to a woman with a life threaten eating disorder and suicidal tendencies.

That relationship left me with a variety of neurotic behaviors that mess with my mental health. More importantly it makes dating difficult as the normal experience of not knowing someone very well triggers ingrained feelings of unease, danger, and anxiety.

The process of finding self betterment and success in dating has been fraught with failures.