0:00 - intro, my mustache, & love/heartbreak from last summer

3:06 - recently catching deep feelings for a gay musician friend (that i've known for 11 years), going on 2 incredible dates (a musical, the pool, & 2 sleepovers), experiencing amazing chemistry & compatibility, & finding out he was also dating one of my friends

11:17 - things started to fall apart, feeling anticipatory heartbreak, almost getting hired by him to work together musically, & giving him a get-well-soon gift

15:05 - getting friend zoned by him during a phone call 2 nights ago, feeling extremely heartbroken, blocking him & our mutual friend, experiencing a hurricane of emotions (& even hurting myself), reviewing some of the positives & negatives of our time together, & trying to "just keep swimming"

23:04 - emdr therapy, doctor's appointment, panda express, barbie movie, & talking about my uber star ratings

26:04 - giving an uber ride last night in salt lake city to 2 guys (who are both drag queens), feeling fear about a truly awful gay couple who used to be my former roommates, chatting about drag with the 2 passengers, seeing their 1-star rating for me later (for "not being polite" & "talking too much"), & knowing that i can't please everyone