I tried to write music today and ended up working on another cover. ARGH! Tomorrow I'm going to focus though! In this video I talk more about how my friendships have suffered because of my disease. One of my friends who I haven't spoken to since my last manic episode almost four years ago texted me the other day. I know I spoke with her when I was manic and I know she knew I was sick but she never reached out to me or anything. And it's pretty much always like that with just about everyone after I've had an episode outside of a few people. I always feel like I need to call and explain myself and apologize and even though it's not my fault I'm still apologizing like I'm in a twelve step program or something. I used to feel guilty for not contacting people again but at one point I realized they really didn't care in the first place or they would have reached out to me. I think in hindsight things are a lot clearer.