He's supposed to HELP ME but he's making it WORSE. I thought he was my friend but he is my ENEMY. I'm actively suffering and in my worst most confusing state and he is driving me lower and lower. Bringing back those horrid thoughts that I've spent months running from, knowing I won't be able to resist them because of my drowsy state the drugs are putting me in. I want ONE FRIEND. PLEASE JUST ONE PERSON FUCKING HELP ME OUT FOR ONCE.